Reality...

I sit here and think, think long and hard. I am here, this is my present. Many times reality hits me hard, and many other times I stay day dreaming. -_- 

There is a container coming next month, my mom in law asked me if there was anything I wanted... anything... as if I could put my finger on one thing I want. I want it all... I want to be there, not here. 

I had to put my big girl pants on and say no. I can't keep shopping in the states when there are so many things I need here... 

I have to stop living here and there... because I'm neither here nor there with that state of mind.